I wish. The once over with a magic tooth wand would be lovely. Reality, though, has me scheduled for fairly major dental surgery in a week and a half which even includes bone repair on my upper jaw. Sigh. Trying to focus on the positives and be grateful.
My thankful list in all this: My suspicions about old root canal trouble never went away despite lack of pain. An acupuncturist two weeks ago immediately referred me to a dental specialist when I mentioned said suspicions. I got in to see the specialist. His detailed scan laid it all out. It's the 11th hour and counting for severity, but not the 12th. If I'd waited even a couple more months I don't know what I would have turned into. A pumpkin? Or something more macabre. In truth I can't explain how I've had such good physical energy and lack of obvious sickness for the last 5 years, even if lesser symptoms kept suspicions on life support. Another mercy.
In a way it's worse now to know what's going on while I wait for surgery. The curtain is pulled back. My body says,"Finally, you get it!" and is relaxing its iron grip on survival mechanisms. Not sure where that extra energy is going now. I feel the lack of strength. I realize more than ever that my mental and emotional efforts to be "normal" every day for years have not been. It's an unpleasant reminder of early years with chronic unwellness.
Not even sure how to close this post. Feels like even "talking" is an effort right now.
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
"He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." Colossians 1:16,17
Saturday, 17 August 2013
Monday, 5 August 2013
Pathway To
Today we visited friends staying in the city, right on the water front. So summery and sublime to walk with them along the inlet bounded trail interwoven with bikers and walkers moving peacefully down the path under the gift of sunshine. And then a lady fell flat on her face in front of us.
After a shocked stare several of us moved toward her. We each offered and did what came to mind. Moments later she sat on the sloped grassy side, paper towel pressed to bleeding eyebrow. A jogger calmly called 911. I sat next to the fallen lady, hand steady on her shaking back. Otherwise she seemed surreally calm. It was like suddenly being in a movie about a lady who fell on a path. We fell into our roles as if we'd rehearsed them. Time moved barely but softly.
The paramedics were on their way. They arrived. Three clean shaven, strong men in efficient navy blue who seamlessly took over. They assessed what paramedics assess and we didn't think to. The 911 phoning jogger turned out to be a stewardess. She put in her earphones and continued her run. Our friends and we mumbled a few more words to each other about the incident, then walked on into new topics and out of the mini movie. It was like another story decoupaged or cut and pasted onto the regular one of visiting friends staying in the city, right on the water front.
After a shocked stare several of us moved toward her. We each offered and did what came to mind. Moments later she sat on the sloped grassy side, paper towel pressed to bleeding eyebrow. A jogger calmly called 911. I sat next to the fallen lady, hand steady on her shaking back. Otherwise she seemed surreally calm. It was like suddenly being in a movie about a lady who fell on a path. We fell into our roles as if we'd rehearsed them. Time moved barely but softly.
The paramedics were on their way. They arrived. Three clean shaven, strong men in efficient navy blue who seamlessly took over. They assessed what paramedics assess and we didn't think to. The 911 phoning jogger turned out to be a stewardess. She put in her earphones and continued her run. Our friends and we mumbled a few more words to each other about the incident, then walked on into new topics and out of the mini movie. It was like another story decoupaged or cut and pasted onto the regular one of visiting friends staying in the city, right on the water front.
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