I wish. The once over with a magic tooth wand would be lovely. Reality, though, has me scheduled for fairly major dental surgery in a week and a half which even includes bone repair on my upper jaw. Sigh. Trying to focus on the positives and be grateful.
My thankful list in all this: My suspicions about old root canal trouble never went away despite lack of pain. An acupuncturist two weeks ago immediately referred me to a dental specialist when I mentioned said suspicions. I got in to see the specialist. His detailed scan laid it all out. It's the 11th hour and counting for severity, but not the 12th. If I'd waited even a couple more months I don't know what I would have turned into. A pumpkin? Or something more macabre. In truth I can't explain how I've had such good physical energy and lack of obvious sickness for the last 5 years, even if lesser symptoms kept suspicions on life support. Another mercy.
In a way it's worse now to know what's going on while I wait for surgery. The curtain is pulled back. My body says,"Finally, you get it!" and is relaxing its iron grip on survival mechanisms. Not sure where that extra energy is going now. I feel the lack of strength. I realize more than ever that my mental and emotional efforts to be "normal" every day for years have not been. It's an unpleasant reminder of early years with chronic unwellness.
Not even sure how to close this post. Feels like even "talking" is an effort right now.
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
"He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." Colossians 1:16,17
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